it's all talk
3.28.2004
This is why I love Molly as I do:
"and YOU shook me alll night looong yeah baby YOU shoook me aaalll night long
the mattress shakes and shimmies with each leap and chortle and we the happy wee lasses have hair a-flyin and we are prepared to shake anyone all night long because that is our way and we do so with glee and then the lights dim and the song slows and there are candles and maybe other things burning and probably wax spilling leaving a telling tale of rebeldia and badassedness and toes are discussed as well as boys and music and life and what are the best words in the world indubitably is indubitably among the top and the sun shines or it acid rains or the wind blows and then suddenly it goes away all of it but comes again for a glimpse of the shine and it is glorious but like the lion king the cycle of life is put into play and is not the same because a paper is to be written and a plane to catch and a car is lacked unless you are willing to spend your last chocolate coin on a purse of jewels but I have my jewel and want no other
and that my dear will not change because the rock star is the rock star and would not be without me and you and a kaleidoscope face of heaven and rum
miss amy is missed and a class will be missed if miss molly does not whisk herself to the otherworld of studiousness
watched sunrise from the top of a mountain before school this morning. other than that, life's been...well--china.
beijos"
And this is how life has been going since then:
"But, on another front, I went out last night and partied like the rock star I can be and I met new people and reunited with a lot of old ones, most of whom asked me “where have you been?” to which I had no reply but a sly shrug and a “cheers!” to the fact that I was there now and that was what really mattered; and I played Frisbee and drank red wine and the snow has all finally melted away and the grass is greening and I feel so much more alive; and I sang in jazz orchestra on Tuesday and received much applause and praise after my performance; and screw going to law school right out of Wes because the fact is that now that I’m becoming alive once again the last thing I want to do is stifle this personal progress by doing something that, while I am sure I will do eventually anyway because I’ve dreamed it so, I can wait to pursue until after I’ve filled my life with other rich experiences so that I can help people the way I want to and bring as many abilities and perspectives and a genuine sense of compassion to the table when the time comes; I want to learn Portuguese; I think my senior thesis is going to be on gender empowerment and agrarian reform in Latin America; I have wonderful friends here who love me and great professors who respect the work that I do; I am blessed to be able to play music every day with great people, and have a gifted musician as a mentor who cares for me like a daughter; I sent an email to Alex (who is in Cameroon this semester dancing her heart out) and told her that she needs to call me “Amy 2.0” from now on because I refuse to be the same moping homebody too afraid to go out and DO something and laugh and love with people who will laugh and love back if I just give them a chance; I miss you but I am looking at what I have now with new eyes as well; The springtime sun just had to come out in order for me to realize it. Looking forward to your next update –your travel writing, ohlala. <3Amy" ¶ 13:55
"and YOU shook me alll night looong yeah baby YOU shoook me aaalll night long
the mattress shakes and shimmies with each leap and chortle and we the happy wee lasses have hair a-flyin and we are prepared to shake anyone all night long because that is our way and we do so with glee and then the lights dim and the song slows and there are candles and maybe other things burning and probably wax spilling leaving a telling tale of rebeldia and badassedness and toes are discussed as well as boys and music and life and what are the best words in the world indubitably is indubitably among the top and the sun shines or it acid rains or the wind blows and then suddenly it goes away all of it but comes again for a glimpse of the shine and it is glorious but like the lion king the cycle of life is put into play and is not the same because a paper is to be written and a plane to catch and a car is lacked unless you are willing to spend your last chocolate coin on a purse of jewels but I have my jewel and want no other
and that my dear will not change because the rock star is the rock star and would not be without me and you and a kaleidoscope face of heaven and rum
miss amy is missed and a class will be missed if miss molly does not whisk herself to the otherworld of studiousness
watched sunrise from the top of a mountain before school this morning. other than that, life's been...well--china.
beijos"
And this is how life has been going since then:
"But, on another front, I went out last night and partied like the rock star I can be and I met new people and reunited with a lot of old ones, most of whom asked me “where have you been?” to which I had no reply but a sly shrug and a “cheers!” to the fact that I was there now and that was what really mattered; and I played Frisbee and drank red wine and the snow has all finally melted away and the grass is greening and I feel so much more alive; and I sang in jazz orchestra on Tuesday and received much applause and praise after my performance; and screw going to law school right out of Wes because the fact is that now that I’m becoming alive once again the last thing I want to do is stifle this personal progress by doing something that, while I am sure I will do eventually anyway because I’ve dreamed it so, I can wait to pursue until after I’ve filled my life with other rich experiences so that I can help people the way I want to and bring as many abilities and perspectives and a genuine sense of compassion to the table when the time comes; I want to learn Portuguese; I think my senior thesis is going to be on gender empowerment and agrarian reform in Latin America; I have wonderful friends here who love me and great professors who respect the work that I do; I am blessed to be able to play music every day with great people, and have a gifted musician as a mentor who cares for me like a daughter; I sent an email to Alex (who is in Cameroon this semester dancing her heart out) and told her that she needs to call me “Amy 2.0” from now on because I refuse to be the same moping homebody too afraid to go out and DO something and laugh and love with people who will laugh and love back if I just give them a chance; I miss you but I am looking at what I have now with new eyes as well; The springtime sun just had to come out in order for me to realize it. Looking forward to your next update –your travel writing, ohlala. <3Amy" ¶ 13:55
