"cant" is a word that rarely enters my vocabulary, or i at least try my hardest to avoid. ive always worked hard, ive never settled, and im not shy to ask for help. yet, as i try to figure out where i want my education to head in the next couple of years, i find that i am not as able to set my own course as i was when i was a freshman or early sophomore. i am having to rule out programs i have often dreamed about because i "cant" do them. its a simple matter of me graduating in two years, and not having time, or the prerequisites, to pursue certain courses of study this far into my education. i am frustrated as all hell with this fact; its difficult for me to accept. and im noticing that "cant" can be contagious: i "cant" go back this next semester, id rather play all day. im not smart enough, so i "cant" do that.
and i have thought about it, but i "cant" take a 5th year. that would hang a financial noose around my neck.
i "cant" let "cant" get the best of me, eh?  ¶ 23:03

  be proud of me, people; i've narrowed down the search for a major to a manageable three subjects... plus a pre-professional requirement track, and a certification in another field. damn.
sometimes, i just wish i could be more boring than i already am. that would simplify this decision greatly.
i am the world's most indecisive 19 year old - just call me "the opinion whore."  ¶ 02:05

  SprWndrGrl: so bob, i figured it out.
SprWndrGrl: i am going to major in comparative politics and complete premed requirements. then i will get my MD, and do my residency at an inner city hospital in LA or NYC or seattle
SprWndrGrl: i will learn spanish and then travel to south america
SprWndrGrl: work in a clinic there for women, and act as a public health administrator
SprWndrGrl: and lobby at washington for rights regarding human health
SprWndrGrl: write a book
SprWndrGrl: and then spend the later years of my career teaching bilingually
btcruiserdude: All before you turn 22.
SprWndrGrl: fuck yeah.  ¶ 00:07

  i am SO bored.  ¶ 18:30