and i got a big, fat envelope from WESLEYAN today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D  ¶ 16:46

  yoda is my goddamn hero.
after purchasing tickets about a week in advance, coordinating a group, waking up at the crack of dawn, assembling food and star war trivial pursuit teams, and announcing the hour count til showtime, and then seeing the show, i must say that it was well worth it just to see the greatest science fiction character of all time trade his cane for a light saber. fuck yeah.
i was supposed to go again tonight, but i decided earlier this week i wanted to go to hear some jazz up in oakland instead. and i am still holding to that plan, for i have only heard larry willis live once, and this is another chance to hear him (assuming he will be part of the quintet... he isnt the headliner).
i would definitely regret not going to hargrove's gig... but still, i wouldnt mind pretending im a jedi a little longer.
and by the way, if you ever wear a t-shirt covered in sharpie, the smell does not go away after taking it off. sick.  ¶ 16:03

  got a skinny envelope from yale today...  ¶ 18:58

  and now i sit in my room. at my desk. the desk i have owned since i was about twelve. my room ive lived in for about 7 years. sitting in a chair that came from the old dining room in san jose. my radio is turned to 95.5, stacks of summer reading are lined up next to my bed. im planning a trip to the music store (for sheet music) sometime this week to get some new ideas. i cant explain just how very much at peace i feel right now. ive never really considered myself a homebody. i just think that being at home, away from my work, away from formal classrooms, i am letting myself live in the now. this whole year at school, ive refused to look at the moment at hand; rather, i was thinking about my future: immediate and distant. be it transferring, choosing a major, thinking about studying abroad... this list could go on forever... i never enjoyed that very moment i was alive. i spent only a few hours of each day (including weekends) outside. the rest of the time i was working, typing, reading, researching. oxy works you damn hard if you want it to. and i got what i wanted, i suppose. but now that im home, i feel so incredibly light. the simplest things are attracting my attention... remember how i had to take great pains to slow down when i was at school, even if it was just walking around campus? well here, at home, i couldnt be more distracted by some of the most beautiful things i have ever seen.
the air here has a fragrance so sweet, and i fill my lungs to the brim with each breath.  ¶ 01:53